Doubt

Like a sickness, doubt spreads through my head
Effect? recollecting every word once said
Wondering what brought about this bad dream
And how to stop this reoccuring theme

Why cant I just live in bliss
Childhoods innocence so deeply missed
If I could, I would go back in time,
and never leave, so happiness could be mine,
you'd better believe.

Does life get easier or is this as hard as it gets?
Im not really sure but I'm taking all bets
That this is the Alpha, it's simply the start
But where's the Omega? I know in my heart
That it's nowhere in sight
That at the end of the tunnel
There is really no light
Or did my mind falsely funnel
These thoughts of Fright?

Because you see such doubts, they just fuck with your mind
Keeping bad thoughts about, and leaving good thoughts behind
The truth is, Im not sure I can achieve
The happiness Ive been led to believe
Is my God-Given right.
However I wont just concede
I just have to recognize the need
To put up a fight

Because truth be told, we were meant to know pain.
But bad times wont hold, so theres so much to gain
By understanding that with the bad comes the good
allowing us to live the way we should -
To the fullest.
So if I had to sum this all up in a ball
This says it best
Life without pain is not living at all